disfunctional

I saw no one except me, falling through a bottomless pit, scared as a scaredy cat I am alone, as always, uninterested in others so I stare blindly. My life won’t be complete without failure even if it hurts SO I better keep a head high if I want to survive this world I’m too lazy to be dysfunctional and too dysfunctional to be lazy. How on earth am I supposed to care? By being true to myself. How on earth am I supposed to share? By infiltrating honesty.

love love love!

SO cruel, why do you have to be so cruel? When all I am is wonderful and starry? To all your wishes and dreams Say hi! You are about to meet them, Then why all of a sudden, you cry? Wipe those tears now, they'll bear Real fruit, something that will last Something to make you realize How wonderful this world is, Especially with you in it You are about to take a bumpy ride Out into this chaotic world Smile while you still have lips Cry while you still can feel Hug somebody while you have 'em Then don't you dare stop Loving everything and everyone Soon you'll find out it is all Love is all that you'll ever need.

Thanks, dear world.

This is a post I'm making to break out into the world. The world which is so full of hope and tragedies, the world I once refused to live in, and face all alone, but I am now in the next phase of life where I'm choosing to stay in this world where I thought is completely impossible to live in. I'm taking this journey with a big heart and all smiles, making everybody feel as if it's too darn easy to fully engage in.
To follow up on my scariest adventure, I've ventured out into the big city. The big city and capital of the Philippines, that is. I've finally made it alive! wooohooo! So glad I've come to terms with speaking to strangers and not let it be uncomfortable. Of course, I am exposing bit by bit myself to people, but I need to choose what or who I 'm speaking to. I just don't look too relaxed to look like a "Manila girl."
I'm here to receive information on how to start up an online business or work at home. I find it actually a lot convenient, for once. I don't have to be bothered by big bosses, have to work on my own, without limits on who or what I should type or not. :)))
Free flowing, I have to be.
I need to engage in the bigger world besides Pampanga.
How nosy!
How cool!
How liberating!
How nostalgic I feel away from the countryside.
 
Here's a song I want to share together with my ever burning desires.

This little pride of mine

"This little pride of mine" for KG I want to stay for long But the thought of you pushes me Away from your flickering light SO I take flight.... Forgive me for procrastinating I didn't show any constraint We're getting close to it Sometimes I feel trapped.... Let's see where it'll take Our dismayed states of mind No one knows where or how We will never know what's next.... I hate to wander off in the depths Of the blinding lights of this city